missing that feeling

I’ve watched a movie and was so touched by its story. I’ve learned a lesson that will always make a big impact in my life. It says that when you love someone, fight for it… with all your strength accompanied by the greatest love in your heart, but you must see to it that that love is worth fighting for. I was caught off guard and realized that I’ve been into a lot of these situations. I’ve always yearned for somebody to love me, yet I can’t feel the same way towards them. Am I missing something? Have I been so selfish? Being in a relationship is somewhat a comforting situation for me. I can only count with my fingers the number of times that I’m unattached yet I begin to feel that I’m missing the whole point. I don’t know how it feels to be totally in love. Have I been wasting my time in spending years of relationship that I now that I’m still going to end?

I only remembered one time I was so into a guy. But he broke my heart and left me so shattered. From then I may have closed my door and I’m having a hard time opening up to someone and getting that satisfying feeling of being in love. I just can’t help it. I don’t know why I’m missing that feeling. I’m hoping to find some answers very soon.