Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic

Sometimes Love just ain’t enough. It takes a great deal of courage to fight for what you feel. You just don’t have to Love. You have to fight for it. When you don’t, it leaves a lot of pain in your heart, and you lose the one you love. You can’t hold back because that person thinks you left him out hanging. Which may be the case, which sometimes is not… You move on and you find somebody who has given you the world. You try so hard to make it work, it finally did, but something’s missing. Your Heart’s empty and you don’t know if you’re just being selfish enough to want the best of both worlds. You want to move on, yeah… always wanted to but why can’t this stupid feeling escape? Why does it have to linger for many years…. Why won’t it go away? You feel rebellion. Not to anybody else, but to yourself alone. Is this real hard? Please, I want to escape from the past. I’ve got a bright future ahead of me. I want to let go. I want to be EMOTIONALLY stable. Do you think it’s easy for me to feel this pain? Don’t you know the guilt is killing me? Do YOU know how sometimes it’s so hard to understand myself? Who can understand me? Who feels exactly the way I feel? Will he understand? Will he give in? Will I ever let go?

Sensitive Issues and my Sensitivity

I know as a writer you should be well rounded enough to discuss all articles that are given to you by your client. Ika nga “its part of the job”and as the famous lines of Sharon Cuneta’s movie “I care about my job sir”… I told my client I can write anything as long as I know I can do it.So there I was excited for the project that he’s going to give me and when I opened my email and browse through all the things I will need to do nothing prepared me for the shock I instantly felt. with all the articles I need to work on I would need to write an article about finding a f*** buddy. My eyes rolled and boy oh boy was i really shock.. then the shock turned to laughter. Imagine me keeping my voice really down beause I worked on this article at 4am in the morning.Yes I know, we Filipinos are really discreet when it comes to sex topics. It is a taboo in the society somethin I’m wondering if its working or not considering the number of unwanted pregnancy that the country faces each year. But well, here I am still making every bit of effort to ask myself on how comfortable am I in dealing this.. =)

note: thanks memor! for restoring my laptop! althoug I lost all my files.. huhuhu… I’m glad it’s still working.. thanks techi guy! bow.. =)

Work Mode

I’m logged in this early to do some tasks that were assigned to me by my client. For a week now I have been switching from work mode number one to work mode number two. It feels great because I get the chance to be doing two things I love most. Sometimes I get to sleep only two hours a day because I have to follow up on a lot of things. It feels great though to be compensated for the work you have done. I felt my mind racing everytime because of the things I need to think and do at the same time. I’ve never been busier and I’ve never felt happier.

Been Busy..

I have been verryyy…. busy! I am into a project right now. I hope I would have enough time to write here! huhuhu…..

Passion like A Fire Burning

A lot of times, I tried to figure out where my passion for writing came from. But I guess, the only think I could think of as of the moment is that writing has been a very instrumental outlet for me. I guess also I didn’t make the right choice when I decided to take up broadcasting as my major. I really wanted to become a journalist, a teacher and social worker but hey enough of this. I’m just a person eager to do a lot of things but writing is always on top of my list. I used to spend a lot of pages in my subject notebooks scribbling anything that just pops in my mind. It’s weird but it’s true. Maybe I just don’t want these ideas to be trapped inside my nutshell. I want people who don’t know me to read my outputs instead. In this case, then perhaps you would know me better. You would understand how I feel. You will agree or disagree with what my ideas are. I’m not a vocal person. Even my writings would make you read between the lines first before you get my point. But I feel proud. Proud of the favor I’ve done to myself. Not all the time you can do something you would really want to do.

Excited..

I have posted an announcement in our friendster page about our plans to conduct our reunion this year.I am very much excited and i really hope that a lot of us will get the chance to be there. It has been almost  10 years since we graduated in high school and I have longed to be together again with my beloved classmates. We have been planning this one ever since and before everyone gets married and would become too busy to attend, then might as well grab this opportunity right? I can’t wait. See you guys!

It’s FUN but it’s WRONG

Geez.. I’v made one grave mistake again and im beginning to wonder when am I gonna learn and when am I gonna stop this thing. No matter how wrong it is sometimes ,a part of your happiness stays with it but you cant justify if your heart would really belong in it. Probably not.. probably this should never be the right time to discuss it at all. But I’m hoping that it would be that easy to admit to somebody that you’re wrong.
Yeah.. read between the lines.

Point of View

Relationships.. are complicated. But complicated as it may seem to be, it’s unbelievable how people are caught still on its web. How you could totally forget yourself to be able to be with someone worth your love. How insane you could get just to make sure you’ll get along fine with him.. only to end up getting hurt again and again and what’s even surprising is you end up finding yourself falling for the same thing again.You want to deny the reality that some things are never meant to be because you know that despite the pain this is where you know you would be happy.

Holidays

I was very happy because I was able to spend the Holiday seasons with my family and I’m lucky indeed that my rest days fall during the holidays. My work requires me to work during odd hours and even holidays to meet business demands. Anyway, we were already accustomed to celebrate a small reunion with my mother’s relatives and that made the event extra special. My cousins, aunts, uncles were there to celebrate the new year together. Indeed, Holidays are precious days to spend with people close to your heart no matter how far they may be.
Happy New Year!

Dunno what to Scribble

Now this is one of those days where you don’t know what to talk about no matter how you try to “piga” your mind. Maybe, this day is just overwhelming. Why? Because I received a very necessary gift. A gift we can’t live without.
I’m gonna hush hush folks because this is something that’s well not a good topic to discuss publicly. So guys, I just wanna wish everyone a happy new year and may your celebration be filled with happiness and love!

It must have been love

The test has finally come to an end. I’m giving up. I’m totally setting him free. Forever in my mind. The day has come when I’ve finally said enough before I loose out of control, before it hurts me more. I know I have been selfish but all along I’ve still been loving him although I’m with someone I love too, but there are a lot of things that we don’t understand. No matter how hard we try to.Right now I realized all along between the two of us, its me who hasnt gotten over it yet. It’s me who still longs for him but he’s gone. I know he doesn’t love me anymore. There’s a feeling of hurt because all along I knew it was me who started it and now it has come to an end. Our love would would now be buried in the past.

Gone for Christmas

I may be gone for a couple of days from the city because I’ll go home to the province.I’m excited to spend time with my family this christmas. I’ll still be bringing my laptop with me just in case I would need to go online, so hopefully, this wont be my last post for this week. I hope I can see my friends and former classmates too and have a chat with them. It’s been months or years since we’ve seen each other and I’m dying to know what has become of each and everyone. Some have gotten married, had kids, went abroad, worked locally but one thing hasn’t change and that’s our friendship whether wer’e near or far.

Merry Christmas!

Christmas is always an anticipated celebration for almost all of us.It’s the time where families spend time together no matter how far they have been apart.It’s the time where conflicts are resolved.The time where ceasefire becomes an option.It’s the time when love rules.I had a lot of christmas wishes, most of them requires monetary efforts but I’ve always known that peace and serenity and the things unseen are the most important of all.I’m going home on the 24th which incidentally is my rest day, including the 25 until the 26.So i purchased my ticket a week before my departure to avoid the rush.I wouldn’t want to miss the ride just because I’ve been careless enough not to plan the details ahead. I would want to wish everybody a wonderful christmas together with your love ones,wherever you may be.

Merry Christmas!

If I Were A Boy

loovvveee this song =)

If I Were A Boy lyrics

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy…

Foodah!

Wherever we go, we always make sure food is part of the routine, so even we arrive at the farthest place, and it’s always taken into consideration. One thing’s for sure, we just love good food. Now these pictures were grabbed by yours truly as a souvenir of good fun and a sumptuous feast. Be it in restaurants near the office or anywhere. Enjoy the sight.